Emergence

My Current work is from this dream:

DREAM: In the dream I am a girl and I have been taken in off the streets by a lovely young couple. I feel beat up and devastated and there is a part of me that does not trust this couple. I have an urge to run. This part of me assumes that they are going to take advantage of me or use me in some way. Yet I know that this is not true. I know in the dream that this is just my own distrust. I want to stay.

It took me almost 15 years to fully accept the psychic devastation of what it is like to live apart from my self. To really get under all the ways I managed in the world and was in a lot ways over-functional as a compensation for the lack I felt inside.

Here in this dream is the acceptance of this devastation and a willingness to let go of my distrust and let in the love these archetypal figures are offering. Here I am not the one taking care of or protecting anyone. From this place I can have all the vulnerability of being a girl and all the potency that comes with facing into my deepest fears. This love that I am beginning to feel in this dream is what the work is ultimately all about.

Our dreams do not ask us to face our deepest reactions and fears for any other reason than to find who we are underneath all of that.

Bill St.Cyr 11/20/11